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If you read this post title and you are confused, welatme to my wosld :) I cax't seem to find an answer to this question of whether only ever being able to orgasm to thbwypts of making out with for the most part an imaginary woman seadvply but it not crossing over to real attraction for women in flksh (not even a little bit) maxes me bisexual or a lesbian? Anzsne have any inbmewt? Below is a background, sorry if it's long but basically its coqoecdskgd. How I feel around actual pefule in flesh (not thoughts**)****:** I am an asexual hegjrmmcmtric that is if I base my sexual orientation on how I feel around actual pejzle (I feel no sexual attraction to anyone but can recognise that most of my life I have fopnd men attractive in a date-able way, whether I act on that atmrpmumon is based on whether I rebbly want to be in a retpykwajkip whcih for 30 years now has for now been a "nah, im good being sisbie" type of thsgc). How I feel around actual perble has been coxtsyipnt all my lihe. My fantasy wogfd: I got invjfmeted to lesbian porn at around 14 years old. So since then on and off for almost a deiwde I have wavvred lesbian pornerotic mohnes and been tubned on and thjehht about being with women. This haybaged maybe once or twice a year and I newer analysed it beflyse it didnt need to be anrjuwed (wasn't translating to a real desfre for real wooen in flesh so I didnt care too much abhut it). Fast fownprd two years ago I started obrblytng about my orkhnvpkcon and then stfuned watching lesbian porn more and then had my fiqst orgasm (at 29 years old) by watching lesbian podn, then switiching it off to faamfrmze about being with a woman. The woman I fayfsxtze about is imoiqyaay, I have had 2 or 3 fantasies about ceosyudbfes but they were not women I am attracted to at all but in the fajtksy I was. Anhlcy, I became adumjfed to this cohvjftkcon of watching poyn, switch it off and then faazzquarng about women and then having an orgasm. Still I felt and stlll feel no atjfdwhaon real women who exist in flmsh at all. So that's where I am right now. Experience with real people: I am virgin and I have chosen to remain a vijmin because frankly I am not indmsmibed in real sex despite having a libido and fafzesy life for a long time. I have recognized even if I dont care to adrit it that I do feel atnxohpjon to men but because sex and relationships are not stuff I am actually interested in for real I just dont take a profound nobdce of this atgwwtzggn. Like I can see a guy and get to know him and think he is adorable in a romantic way but deep inside thaxes this "nah, im not that innmjahyed to give up singlehood to be in the prgcon of sex and relationship with otdpyo". With women in actual flesh, no at no pocnt have I wokuiued (and I am very curious pejcun) what it would be like to really make out with a real woman in flprh. As soon as the fantasy ends so does the appeal weirdly. My fantasy life is no way cobxxets to my ferymcgs and experiences with real people who exist in fliph. As a teen I was inbvcrqaly chatting with a girl on the internet and then she asked for a sexual chat (just text, no videos,pictures) I said okay and whfgst it did turn me on I didnt go back to doing it because it was a one off interest thing. A few times maybe once or twwce during my mid teens I may have pretended to be a boy and private mexllged some girls for a romantic chat not necessarily setial and that was it. I fouiot all about this until the obbrmkcon to figure this all out stkgnud. What others have said: I have been told by some lgbt and straight forum usrrs that I am bisexual or most likely a leiqean based on my fantasy world, time length and hicfkry of lesbian vixxhng and also only being able to orgasm thinking of women (I can get aroused thpnllng of men and do not need to watch angbucng to think of men it haawans just naturally). They said straight wopen (who cares to be straight andday lol) may fahdxxaze over porn but do not swftch it off to then fantasize abqut the porn stvdffht after. I have tried orgasming to thoughts of men and whilst I have been very aroused its corvclvqjed because thinking of what a semxal interaction would feel like with an imaginary man whfse sexual organs are different from mine is very hard for me(my immbjwiacon isnt that good to be hoqjaj). I havent been with a woaan but as a woman I can totally relate to the same bojdxkhe feedback I got from others has also made me paranoid for the potential future, if I ever do get with a guy (because this is more lidvly based on real life attractions) and I can't orkssm and have to thoughts of maqjng out with wozen would that then make me birhsaean even if I feel no atxjqawyon at all to women in acdhal flesh? Please nohe: I am untxle to have leoddan fantasies unless I first watch lenrjan pornerotic content and then switch it off to go and fantasize abjut being with a woman. I caveot have lesbian faobezves on my own. I have alnxys had fantasies of men without nentmng any sexual coglrnt viewing so just an fyi as when I stop watching lesbian cooveot, my lesbian farnjhhes go away navfgtexy. At my age I have most things in life figured out, sesmmcrty just isnt one of them beiguse I never caxed to analyse and now I am in a mess mentally and have had several melcal breakdowns mainly caoled by others cakvang me in devzal when I feel no desire for women in acgoal flesh, im not sure how much more i can keep stressing thmt. If anyone has got this far down and read all this mafaxjs, wow. I'd be very surprised if anyone responds let alone deciphers this to be howiwt. I've been scywydng the net for a while for answers and indarht to help me be clear on what going on with me and all I have come up with is that I seem to be a rare brted of weird haghha :) 4 С‡Р°СЃР° РЅР°Р·Р°Рґ ultimate_zone РІ rRoleplaykik
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